Kamala Sarup: Woman And Mental Concept
Woman And Mental Concept
By Kamala Sarup
In a way Maya had felt very bad. Specially, such events bring imbalance in her mental status and make it sorrowful too. Any woman who has often been reading mental concepts that living through wealthy mental condition is extremely dangerous for life, she is easily tired of situation and it has become a weakness and these days this very weakness has made her constantly insane.
Now even the idea of home bring fear in her. Therefore, in the morning when she goes out of her home every time she is discharged with the thought of her possible returning home in the evening. Although the place where your own parents and sister live, should be pleasant yet the people who don't understand her well, begin to connect all kinds of things at that time. She is mostly sad. Certainly, Maya remains in a way dissatisfied with herself.
She has her own dream, that is to say, not only for defining a dream, but also a dream that accepts the reality which provides some achievement. 'Every human being lives depending on some dream'. This was what written in a letter to her by her very close friend Shweta at one time. At that time, in fact, she had certainly got an opportunity to think a little about her own life. Now slowly her dream has transformed into want, dissatisfaction and conflict making her life a different journey.
"Alas! Isn't the translation of life into a journey, that's divided into different smaller parts?"
Often she feels agitated with the answerless answer when she questions herself. At that time for her this kind of inner inquiry has become a daily job although she has some aspects of life of her own kindreflected always in the terrible present now on in solitude.
She feels pain in this way also that almost every member of her own home couldn't offer expected love to her. In fact, what she required most was love. Seeing the hatred, insult and the attitude of selfish individuals she sometimes wishes to commit suicide too. Yes, she really likes to commit suicide. All the members of the house and the relatives she has distantly known are entirely selfish. They are such that they do not even hesitate to create immense pain to her mind.
Alas! What a great shock to her great journey, what a great pity! At this time she is walking on the street. It's the street near Rani Pokhari or the Queen's Pond. A young boy of about seventeen has just jumped into the pond. A crowd of inquisitive passersby is increasingly pouring in and swamping the incident.
"What a pity! Why was he tired of life in such a young age?" A lady who was walking beside her expressed with a deep sigh.
Somehow unknowingly she too feels like jumping into the Queen's Pond. Why continue a life like this any more? She feels extremely disgusted with the life she is now living ." It's not easy to carry on with this life", but she has received a letter from her some friend today also and a sudden enthusiasm to live has cropped up in her once again. But, she, in fact, cannot make her own the outward joy that easily. She, who is living in a wearisome state of mind, has again felt an extreme disgust with life.
Journalist and Story Writer Kamala Sarup associates and writes for http://www.mediaforfreedom.com/ . She is a regular contributor to United Press International - Asia News. She is specializes in in-depth reporting and writing on peace, anti-war, women, terrorism, democracy, and development. Some of her publications are: Women;s Empowerment in South Asia, Nepal (booklets); Prevention of Trafficking in Women Through Media, (book); Efforts to Prevent Trafficking in for Media Activism (media research). She has also written two collections of stories. Sarup's interests include international conflict resolution, cross-cultural communication, philosophy, feminism, political, socio-economic and literature. Her current plans are to move on to humanitarian work in conflict areas in the near future. She also is experienced in organizational and community development. A meeting of jury members held on March 21, 2007 in Geneva decided to honor Sarup, with an Honorable Mention International Award for reporting on women's issues.